poison Ivy

This interpretation of what I had expected and what is is poison Ivy.
Burning growing and hard to get rid of yet in this I find the strongest strength my insight and soul could of needed which in all reality was my escape. I escape daily behind these eyes to a world of consistent down pours of warm hearts; the kind you can actually feel in your chest; And at the same time feel like a cheater in the relationship of self doubt and hopefulness. What is it that you believe in every day or that is your drug that give yourself in the morning to make the day go by faster if not in a blur; the drug that makes you not remember is poision ivy of the imagination. It hurts and makes your brain itch for productivity and purpose. It gets bundled like a blanket in the midst of a nightmare; but we're too caught up in the night and sadly numb due to slumber to fix it.You wake up the next day knowing you're going to do the same thing that you did yesterday but what if you didn't. You wouldn't die; you'd feel as if there was a physical hole in your chest where the tightening when you get too stressed out builds; It's poison Ivy of you'r ability to have hope. In this unchanging and sometimes routine daily life find one thing you didn't do the day before and step over the poision ivy of you not believing that you'd have as much fun as your realistically did in being the risk taker you weren't going to be when you got in the car today and drove to all the same places you went the day prior. You're lack of belief in change is the worlds poison ivy. We all suffer and we all find a cure at different times and in different ways the meaning of this world is discovered and in that the cure for diversity is found. Green and blue the colors of the globe in pictures the colors of the green plant poison Ivy and the color of the water that makes it grow.